ETHESDA, Md. -- MY
wife and 10-year-old daughter mock me from the breakfast-room
window. They think I am ridiculous, sitting out in the backyard
gazebo in ski pants, rag-wool hat and fleece-lined gloves, trying to
write a novel longhand in the midwinter cold. Wouldn't I be more
comfortable inside, they ask. After all, don't I have a perfectly
pleasant room of my own in the basement, fully equipped with
wall-to-wall carpeting, two computers and forced-air heat?
They just don't understand. Having their own off-site workplaces
(a downtown office and a fifth-grade classroom), they can't
comprehend my obsession with the gazebo. To them the little
octagonal structure is just a novelty, a screened-in rec room for
summer nights when the mosquitoes get pesky. But to me the gazebo is
a year-round necessity — the one place I can work away from the
domestic distractions of home, without ever leaving the
premises.
Writers, like many who work and live in the same place, are
plagued by the undefined borders between our professional and
personal lives. People assume that, since we are at home, we are
available to them in ways that others — those with real jobs in real
offices — are not. Our workdays, therefore, are ripe for
interruption, hostage to those who want to solicit donations, sell
long-distance service or save souls from damnation. This explains
why I am unswervingly hostile to telemarketers and door-to-door
evangelists. It also explains why I write novels in my gazebo in
30-degree weather.
My gazebo contains neither doorbell nor telephone. It does
contain a lamp, a ceiling fan and a clock that tends to freeze up in
winter. More important, it houses two honey-colored wicker armchairs
with plump maroon cushions in which I can sit and work. Yes, there's
an electrical outlet for my laptop, but in recent months, I've
stopped bringing it to the gazebo. Having a computer there makes it
feel too much like that other place, that place of e-mails and
telephone calls and compulsive online portfolio-checking, that place
I call Home.
My gazebo is unlike a porch or a quiet corner of the neighborhood
Starbucks. It's a wonderful hybrid,
somewhere between inside and outside, shelter and exposure,
civilization and wild nature (well, as wild as Bethesda gets). This
ambiguity is what I like best, though the gazebo can be confusing to
others, including the odd cardinal who, thinking it a flyway from
one part of the yard to another, occasionally stuns itself against
the screens. In my more grandiose moments, I like to think of the
gazebo as a place uniquely conducive to the making of art,
balancing, on the one hand, the Romantic impulse toward communion
with raw nature and, on the other, the Classical ideals of
detachment and aesthetic distance. (It's also a good place to smoke
a cheap cigar — my cure for writer's block — without stinking up the
house.)
Gazebos, of course, are not meant to be used as workplaces. They
are places of leisure, intended to embrace a garden view. Although
mine does offer a comely vista of gently sloping lawn, the
landscapes I'm usually focused on are interior. True, working in the
gazebo does not make me entirely immune to interruption,
particularly from the squabbling of squirrels (who, I have
discovered, lead lives of remarkable intensity). But such
disruptions are a small price to pay — and besides, squirrels are a
lot easier to scare away than FedEx
delivery people.
I would love to have a meaningful story to tell about how I built
the gazebo from scratch, creating an ideal and idiosyncratic space
for myself with the honest labor of my own hands. But, alas, I
don't. In fact, I didn't even have the thing installed ready-made;
it came with our house as part of the purchase deal. But serendipity
often rushes in where conscious design fears to tread. And so I have
found my perfect writing room in a prefab gazebo — my sanctuary, my
own private dacha of the soul.